你还是你吗？

where are you? i can't even understand why ..can anyone tell me why? why?..i asked myself every night....am i useless and not important to u all ady? why you hide the truth? i can't believe this is you....why not from your mouth telling me that where are you..
i feel that i wan cry out!! it's so hard to control myself.....i cn't cry..can't....

Cant lie that how much im worrying mum n didi now.....i hate myself...im not a good daughter...not a good sister and absolutely, im not a good girlfriend..how wish i can back to home now...but how? i can't leave at this moment....all assignments and midterm waiting for me....(..

when i knew dad are in oversea now, feel glad coz u're safety now..but my mind was blank afterwards! "i hate u" this words coming out in my mind....but i really miss u dad.....im not comfortable....im so stress..

last time, when i stress and darkness, you will be there for me...but i have alots of things to share with you....i need you dad....really....mummy for sure so lonely now....brother need your advises...pls contact me as soon as possible...can? *praying*

today, my mood so down....mad.....pissed off!! i hate myself like this.....really.....alots of things hovered me now....im so sad...so sad....i can't expressed my feelings to buddies besides me..it's quite hard to speak....

Do you know, dad? i have called bernard....he was moody too...he worried about his future and hate himself...he said mummy dont want him anymore....its hurt...i can feel that mummy was mad and sad now....how dad? i worried......

i wan back to sabah..i promise, i will back soon....i wan back...